These past few months I have had time away from a lot of stress and shenanigans, and have had time to reflect on the events that have occurred. I also have thought about the fact that I typically get what I want, through working hard for the things I want or just being blessed. So, trying to think deeper, I asked myself do I always get what I need?

I think that the answer to that is an obvious no, because if I got what I needed in every situation, it would make for a perfect life and perfection does not exist. In relationships, they have always ended because of something lacking, and normally the basic things that should be reciprocated in a relationship. The same is true in some work relationships as well. So, then I had to ask myself why do I not get what I need out of some situations and relationships? For me, it has been because I have settled instead of waiting for what I know God has for me, which means that I am accepting less than what I deserve. I think that I have recently learned one of th biggest lessons of my life, and I have to remember Proverbs 3:5, which tells me to trust in the Lord with all my heart and lean not to my own understanding.

To me, this means that I have to remember the things that God has promised me and focus on that, no matter what I am experiencing (which can be a lot harder than it sounds like). In those moments where I am feeling as though things should be happening a lot faster, I have to remind myself by thinking of the negative results that were a consequence of my previous choices. I know that I will continue to get what I want, but now I will focus on taking steps that get me closer to getting what I need. This will cause me to grow and observe more, and not to make rash decisions.